Goodsearch for Kittys

Want to help raise money to save homeless kittys in the Sacramento/Elk Grove area?

I volunteer at Sisters Animal Sanctuary (SAS) and one of the ways that they raise money to help fund their kitty saving efforts is through Goodsearch.com it is a search enginer powered by Yahoo! and every time you search money is donated to SAS. Just go to Goodsearch.com and type in “Sisters Animal Sanctuary” in the “Who do you goodsearch for” box and there you go. You Just search the net like normal and help save kittys in the process.

You can even add goodsearch to your tool bar just like yahoo search or google search. You can also GoodShop

And the really fun part is you can click the “amount raised” button and follow how much money is being raised. 1 cent a search isn’t much, but if you tell your friends and family and they all join in, think of the impact we can make to help Sisters Animal Sanctuary, better the lives of animals.

Oh Monday

Yep its Monday.. Vial Vial Monday. Yes I have grown to dislike Mondays more and more. This mornings bloody nose, forgotten backpack and spilled coffee in Curtis’s Car make me dislike them even more. My leg is wet and I don’t like it!

Oh yes and did I mention that I was seriously sore this morning. I finally went snowboarding on Saturday. I went once 8 years ago, when I was a freshman in High School and It was not a very successful event. All I really remember of that day was falling on the lift at the top. I don’t remember being able to snowboard. And for the last two or three winters I’ve been telling myself I was going to learn, and having multiple people promise to teach me. But it never happened. But Curtis is awesome and finally took me. I wasnt the greatest, and have some fears to get over but I didn’t do too horribly. And by the end of the day (a short day might I add) I was getting off the ski lift pretty well. Thank God for the spa at the cabin though, it was amazing to sit in after boarding. Im still pretty sore today. :(

Its been a long time since i’ve blogged. and not much has been going on in life because I just work and go to school and work and dont sleep and go to school. I hardly ever have time to spend with Curtis let alone my friends. This weekend is the most time i’ve spent with him in a few months. Besides the lack of free time, my busy schedule has made it damn near impossible for me to lose weight. I put on a lot of weight at the end of the summer and through the beginning of winter. And now without any free time to work out, unless I want to wake up at 5am it seems damn near impossible. I will get a few days of working out in, and then something goes wrong somewhere and I end up spending the next few days stuffing my face. its a solid two steps forward one step back and some times two steps back sorta process… its getting old. its frustrating. But I guess i can only keep trying. and eventually i’ll figure out something that works for me. Story of my life

Volunteering

I am now 4 weeks of actual class into my Vet Tech Program. I am loving it! Despite my occasional complaints about them having us take an extended break only to come back and go home early (such a waste), and the complaints about Chemistry, Its a pretty awesome program. So far the pace of classes has been very tolerable. I don’t feel rushed or overwhelmed with homework. Because all the classes over lap there isn’t a horrible amount of read. And although that may increase a bit It is great for now!

I know that completing my AS in Vet Tech and becoming and getting my license isn’t going to be enough to guaranty me a job, especially in today economy. I need experience, things to set me apart from others. Every Job posting I read require so many years of experience with this or that… WCC gives me experience with my clinical rotations and my externship, but I know it wont be enough, that is why I’ve decided to Volunteer as much as possible.

So I have looked around, and with my busy schedule this isnt going to be easy. I have been in contact with a cat sanctuary in Elk Grove, and I am waiting to hear back from them on how to proceed. I have signed up to attend the orientation seminar with PSPCA so that I can take other seminars and then eventually start volunteering over there… That feels like it is going to be a long while of classes before it ever gets off the ground.

And then there is the Folsom zoo. i want to volunteer there so bad. It would be great to be able to have experience working with large exotics and rehab animals. But there is a whole huge application process over there. You have to fill out an application, references, tons of info about you and all… and then send it to them. They say it could take up to a month or so for them to get back to you. Im not sure all the details of their selection process, but im guessing its not going to be all that easy to get in over there. I am really hoping though.

So keep your fingers crossed for me! I am going to be a very very busy person… And somewhere is all of this I still have to find time for my home life. But really cutting back hours at work would be a great solution!

2008

So I stole this Idea from someone else’s blog. Although I’ve done surveys recapping the year, I think writing about my year is better, so here you go!

January - I was deathly ill..! OMG so sick. After visiting my Grandma and contracting the death flu I spent a week on the couch without sleep. I did however finally see the Indian Joans movies and played Monsters on the PS3. I believe I also beat Ratchet and Clank on the PS3 in January. I’d officially called it quits on my Mary Kay Business.

February - Lets see… Valentines Day was fun here at work…but the only thing that sticks out in my mind is the awful dinner at BJ’s that Night. I Met Andrew in my construction management classes at CRC. And I was actually liking my job at this point, although hating my CM classes. And things werent going so well at home.

March - March brought around a break up and the introduction of homeless Kaite. I moved into my Mom’s spare room, leaving behind all my stuff at Josh and Johnny’s, including my puppies :( My boss had his knee surgery in March, The beginning of long days at work and the addition of nurse to my job description. It was another happy month at Emard, my boss and I were still getting along. It was also the beginning of Saga Benny.

April - I think April can be summed up in one word…. Players And this also would be when I met lovely Miss Audra, and finally got my flowers filled in! I also started playing indoor softball with my company.. Emard Shockers!

May - May was pretty much the same as April… Lots of drinking, lots of Sushi eating, and adventures at Silver Sake. and lots of time at the gym… and Oh yes lets not forget my fall at Whiskey Wilds. lol …. Then came the unforgettable 31st river trip, with all of its vodka watermelon, “I’ve never” playing, and boobie flashing! The day I decided I would settle for nothing less than having Curtis.

June - Renee and Juliet were in town for court with Brandon. It was the first time and the only time so far I have met my niece. Grandma Bobbie pronounced me one person instead of two! June Held fun adventures of NASCAR and Warp Tour, Late nights and Josh’s endless bitching about Curtis and I… and my introduction to Ryan’s big mouth!

July - We had a great 4th of July party at brother Nick’s… Got to see Amy, and get assaulted with water balloons. More river trips and Tamika’s last day at Emard :( And lots of sleep overs.

August - My step-sister got married in Tahoe, and Curtis and I had our first weekend away together. Little Brother turned 21 and we took off for Vegas… oh Vegas…I bid and won my first big job at Emard… and probably the only job I will ever work on like I did… because in September I will decide that im not appreciated any long and I dont enjoy estimating.

September - More Tahoe for Curtis’s Birthday… CSUS Homecoming with Alex and a very drunken walk home in the hot hot heat… lol…Drunk Kaite should wonder midtown alone! And at the end of the Month Mom and Larry finally moved into their new house in VV.

October -Normally my favorite month it was a very dark month for me. Probably the worst month all year. lets not talk about my 22nd birthday besides to say that my bathrobe was amazing. Curtis and I also spent an awkward weekend in Tahoe with his parents. And I officially moved in with Curtis <3

November - Had a Freeze-Giving and met a lot of Curtis’s family for the first time, thank goodness April was around to introduce me. We spent Thanksgiving in Tahoe with my Mom and Drunk Grandma. Curtis helped deepfry the turkey and we headed home that night so he could work at 6:30 on black friday! I made the decision to get my AS in Veterinary Technology and switch my career field.

December - December has been an alright month! We put up Christmas decorations. Nick stayed with us on the weekends. Our heater broke for a few days, of course the coldest of the month! I finished my semester at ARC and started at WCC for my Vet Tech. Christmas has been an ordeal to figure out, but we are looking forward to spending Christmas eve with the brothers and then Christmas with Curt’s family. then on the 28th I will be taking off for a week in New York with my Mom… part of my 11 day vacation! quite the way to end a year!

Start

On Monday the 8th I started my Veterinary Technician program!!!  As the first week of school always is its slow getting started in actual work, but an over load of information all at once. Its going to take a week or two to get into the routine of when I have all my different classes and what I need to do to be prepared but I will get there. I have a feeling im not going to be getting much sleep for the next 18 months. The breaks between terms will be very welcome when they come!!!

I dont have my srubs yet and im dying to get them. Hopfully my school ones will come in before the break. Either way im going to go get some of my own this weekend… hot pink and black anyone?

Im really looking forward to writting more about class once it all starts going. Im hoping my enjoyment of the program will distract me from my hate for my job, and the long hours, and lack of time to relax with Curtis.

Better cut this short, almost time to leave for class. Dont wanna be late. But a quick update, the suprise 60th party my Mom and I did for Larry went off awesomely! No thanks to his daughters who showed up way late, everyone had an awesome time. Nick and Curt were a big help and everyone loved it.

I ran out of gas on the way to school monday. Did you know there are freeway ninjas out there to help you?

This weekend is Sweezy’s last weekend with us. Brother Nick’s Bday party, San Fran with Curts brothers… and a lot of the boys playing War Hammer on Sunday… and me doing homework. Yay!!

Six days and counting

Yesterday I went to school and took my ID picture and got fitted for my scrubs…. and on Monday (12/8)  I start my Vet Tech program. Needless to say I’m getting quite nervous. I am always super nervous about starting new things, but this one is particularly nerve racking because it is a huge commitment. After Monday I am on the hook for 18 months, for 20,000ish dollars in student loan debt, and long hours away from my boyfriend, and lots of homework. Sounds amazing doesn’t it?

I’m scared that I wont be good, that I wont be able to keep up. Im worried that this wasn’t the best decision money wise. Vet Tech isn’t a career for money its a career of purpose and fulfillment, and it’s a big step for me to make that decission. My life has been roughly structured on the pursuit of money, and it hasn’t made me happy…ergo the reason my decission to change.

Its all just a lot to take in… I am ready for it to start though so I can finally grasp how its all going to go.

Gears of War 2

Oh dear, I have reached a whole new level of nerd status…. Yes … This weekend Curtis and I bought Gears of War 2…He has wanted a game for the two of us to play together for a long time and when I saw the previews for Gears before it came out it looked fun. So I put aside all my previous reservations about shooter games and Im playing it. And I like it!

Granted I am pretty bad, im playing on the super easy mode, but im learning. And Curtis and I are playing it together too. Jude if you will but its pretty awesome :)

And I’ve also been playing Lego Indiana Jones. Curtis got it free at work the other day. Its cute. But just like Lego Star Wars the game mechanics are pretty shitty. But the cheat codes are fun…always love when you can make elephants poo money! he he… I think when Im done with these too I will get Lego Batman. Simply because Batman kicks ass and has a utility belt!

YOU JUST CAN’T

You cannot argue with me based on a passage from your bible, from a moral of your religion and ignore others just to serve your purpose!!! That makes you ignorant and hypocritical and just plain foolish to me.

I have stated before that I was against Prop 8. I believe that government should not make laws supporting religion or inhibiting it. I believe it is a violation of church and state and I couldn’t have been happier with our supreme court when they allowed gay marriage. Our California majority is a hateful group of people. But im not here today to argue politically why its wrong. I would like, as a christian, to illustrate why Christians shouldn’t seek to ban Gays the right to marry.

If im not mistaken one of the first things I learned as a Christian was that Jesus died for our sins (I’ll touch on that in a min) But secondly I learned that we were to be Christ-like, and forgive people of their sins and be accepting on them. We are all sinners but Christ died for those sins and if we accept him in then we are forgiven. (John 8:7 KJV) “So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her.” So my question is this Christians… Are you free of sin? Is being homosexual a sin? Do you believe what the bible says? If you answer yes to all three then im fairly certain that your religion says you should be excepting of gays.

I also believe another lesson I learned as a Christian was free will. God made us, and he gave us free will. We do not have to do anything, we can choose to except him and what he did, or we can choose to live in sin, we can choose to defy him. Because in allowing us free will our choice to be a Christian means something. So then I ask this… If God loved us enough to give us a choice to love him or not, why would we Christians who try and be Christ-like see to take away other free wills. To disallow them the choice to live a homosexual life style with all the same right same sex couples are allowed. God gave them the will to choose their life and now we seek to take it away.

(Ephesians 4:32 KJV) “And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.”

We are going to get nowhere in an intolerant world. Forcing your morals and beliefs on others will do nothing for you or them. They are people just as you and I are, even if they dont believe the same way we do doesn’t mean we can treat them like they dont matter.

Sydney

HALIFAX LYRICS
“Sydney”

So tell me now, what do I have to do
To say things that will get through to you
I’ll cross my fingers and I’ll pray for you
To somehow see this site
Call me more convinced.
Say there’s a way to cure this loneliness
With common sense

If I could be anything, I would be medication for you
And everything that you’ve done wrong
If I could be anything, I would be one medal of honor
For you and everything that you’ve done right

Call me pathetic, call me what you will
Just please don’t leave my side
You’re so medicated,
You don’t even remember my name
Or I’ll bite my fingernails until it hurts no more
To dig you out
To dig you out

If I could be anything, I would be medication for you
And everything that you’ve done wrong
If I could be anything, I would be one medal of honor
For you and everything that you’ve done right

Today, a walk to forget,
I’d rather open up this casket, and jump inside
Sleep under the stars, with you tonight
I’d rather be below, than ever be without you
Your funeral can make it hard to breathe, they’re few
And far between
The days are seeming shorter, these nights seem so much longer
I’m laying here when I should be there with you

I’ll bite my fingernails until it hurts no more
To dig you out
To dig you out

If I could be anything, I would be medication for you
And everything that you’ve done wrong
If I could be anything, I would be one medal of honor
For you and everything
For you and everything

A Mans World

I used to love working in a ‘mans world’. By that I mean construction specifically, because there are just not a lot of women in the industry. I’ve always been one of the boys, so when I feel into construction at 18 it just made sense. I had been hanging drywall and going on plumbing side jobs with my dad since I was a little girl. I hung out with my brother and had guy friends. I grew up a cute little girl who could bat her eyes and get things done.

That carried over into the construction industry. With its male dominance being a woman, who’s good at their job can you you places. I had a boss that took me under his wing like a dad and taught me all sorts of things because it was fun. I’ve had a boss who hired me for my boobs and I learned a ton doing all his work because he was worthless. And I’ve finally ended up with a boss who was amazed and wow’ed by my skills when he hired me, but soon realized that although I was good at my job he saw me as flawed because I was a woman. I dont golf, or smoke cigars, i’ve never actually operated a backhoe, and if he were to talk sleazy about women infront of me it would be sexual harassment.

About the same time my boss realized I didn’t make a very good right hand MAN, I realized I no longer enjoy being in this mans world. As i’ve moved up in positions, sweet talking gets me less, and Im looked down on for not being a hard ass. Unlike the money and power hunger higher ups, I dont feel the need to yell and degrade people to get ahead. And that is why the construction industry and I no longer get alone. Its no longer something I have the heart to put my all into. I don’t want to be those people I’ve idolized for so long, they have nothing I want.

And maybe everyone who is anyone in this world is selfish, and feels like everyone owes them, and no one is as good as them. But if thats what it takes I dont want to be someone… I just wanna be me. I am gentel and kind, I like to help, I dont order people around. I will take charge when need be but not at the expense of someone else.  I know things need  to get done, but I don’t regard everything I ask for as an emergency the way some of these people do.

In coming to this realization recently I’ve also come to realize that Im not suited for ulta fast paced life. I want to enjoy my life… Working and making money for a living is inevitable, I’ve left behind my fantacies about being a house wife and having everything handed to me (although it was never possible :P  )…but I dont want to live for my work. I would like to enjoy it, but at the end of the day I want my life to be about that time Im not spending at work, the time I am enjoying MY life.  I don’t to be ruled by the stress to make more money and more money… I want to be simple… I wanna be me.

Can you imagine a day where you can wake up and enjoy a leasiurely breakfast. Where work is something you enjoy going to, and when you’re done at the end of the day there are positive responses to the question ‘how was your day’ you’re not bitter for being yelled at or over worked. You actually might feel a sense of accomplishment… And you can cuddle up on the couch and enjoy and real evening. . . . I can’t wait to be out of this industry, and down with school.